Writing for the sake of writing...

Can I actually make something of that?? I don't know. I do know that I'm missing something that made me happy. Even though I am always my worst critic, I have something in there that needs to get out. I have been wanting to do something about it for some time now, but there has never been a clear voice or reason to do anything. The past few months have made me realize that I am NOT the person that I'm "representing" in the workplace - not to say I'm not good at what I do, it's just that it isn't the person I remember in 19 fucking 93. Which may or may not be a good thing. I do know that I am feeling a bit stagnant - for lack of a better word at this moment - and even though I do feel like I'm a bit overwhelming, (think CD), I am still feeling as though I've lost myself in the fact that I'm not doing what I am passionate about. I know that I'm passionate about a number of things, (which is also another annoying thing but that's another post topic for sure), which haven't come out in a long time. I do want that back, and have wanted that back for some time now. I'm just not sure how to achieve that at this point in my life. Not to say it's not possible, I'm just wondering how I can achieve that "balance" I've been striving for since I was a teenager. I spent the day cooking and baking and making candy on Saturday, and as much as it is insane in an "Izzy turning around and seeing a million muffins in her kitchen" kinda way, I was okay with it.